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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 05:08

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Why did i forgive my father ?

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

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My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

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As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

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I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

What do gang stalkers want?

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

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I was scared of men, in general

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

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They are buried together, in the same grave..

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

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She wouldn,t have been !

This is soul school!.

And i lived it daily.

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Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

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I was seconnd youngest,

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

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One cannot live in the past .

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

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The only rule us 5 kids had .

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Can someone write me a sex story?

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Put me off passion for life!!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

She was in good health!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

When she asked me how she looked .

I waited trembling.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

He resisted the act ,that day.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

It was going to be , some day.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I will be 64.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Im still living with it.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I could never make a relationship work though!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Was to survive, this bastard.

So, i spoilt her more .

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I never cut or harmed myself..

But it wasn’t much.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Comes on , in middle age.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

What did i know ?

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

She married twice! .

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Who then, do I blame.?

She loved him until the end.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

My family never makes their pension either.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Where the ultimate outsiders.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

We were not on the streets..

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

So whats the point in blame.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I couldn’t, believe it.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I was 9 years of age.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

He knew the spot.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

All the time i was locked up.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Especially a lifetime of it.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I was very sick at this time too.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

We all went to grammer schools

My life is so biszare .

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

But ive been too sick for many years..

I think the readers, may guess!

I write beautiful poetry .

As i do to all so called friends.?

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I have no regrets .

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

But, we were locked up after school.

She found it foreign!.

I said to her

I don,t even have a pension.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Ive learnt so much.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Would this be the day?